Wednesday 29 December 2021

Attention Attention

I'm in my late forties, and have a sense of who I am
My loves, my likes, my dislikes and the things that made this man
but late as it may be I've recently worked out
I'm an ADHD sufferer and of that I have no doubt

I was diagnosed at the age of one as hyperactive
a medical case with medical support they tested and reacted
with drugs and shrinks and all sorts to try and fix my ways
of running on one hours sleep and 23 hour days

The family was extended to all he neighbourhood
Neighbours cared throughout the day, did the best job that they could
my mother slept in daylight, and woke to hope that maybe
tonight would be the first night that sleep would find her baby 

but 12 months passed and nothing changed my energy didn't subside
I didn't switch off, 
I did know how, 
My default was still WIRED

then someone (who I don't know) saw an end to mum's frustration
let's send the boy to school to begin his education
this idea worked two-fold with child care in the day, plus mental stimulation
we'll tire this overworking brain, a two tier combination

the approach was fantastic, structured, engaging, formal
and in a matter of just weeks life became more normal
But looking back it was a little strange only stacking up to my best friends shoulder
having peers at junior school who were two-years older

Anyway rolling on, to the present day
I've just cracked on with who I am I think its fair to say
but belatedly I've began to join the dots
through consuming information to understand my lot